I have so many precious memories that I hold so very dear
to my heart. The first day we met, I remember being introduced to you after
rugby practice. You were still wet with sweat and your muscles bulged out of
your grey sleeveless shirt. I remember thinking how beautiful you were, but I
was told you were off limits. It wasn’t more than a week or so later that we
found each other attracted to one another like magnets. I remember flashes of
that night, looking around the bar for you, it wasn’t hard to pick you out in
your white and grey striped shirt and that massive grin that was permanently painted
across your face. The level of excitement that I felt when I saw you walking
towards me from the other side of the room was enormous. You held out your hand
and not so gently pulled me towards the dance floor. You were intoxicating and
I instantly fell in love with the way you danced, and this is not because you
were an amazing dancer but because you thought you were and you loved every
minute of it. You moved your shoulders back and forth in an uncoordinated
fashion and it made me laugh. You always hated when I laughed at your dancing,
and once told me you wouldn’t dance anymore if I kept it up.
It rained that night and instead of bee-lining it to the
house from the cab I insisted we go run on the rugby pitch in the rain. We laid
there looking up at what little stars we could see and soaked up the beauty
that surrounded us. This spot is where I bowed down on the day of your memorial
at the club, I did this before our game and I prayed for you to give me
strength, I told you that I loved you and that I wanted to play hard so that I
could continue to impress you with my talent. Since that night the pitch has
been a special place for us, it was where we first met, where we spent a lot of
our time and where I first told you I loved you.
After that night running around on the pitch in the rain,
I woke up in your arms and quickly realized that you had somehow managed to
keep me within your tight embrace for the whole night, a feat that most cannot say
they have accomplished. We seemed to fit together perfectly like spoons. That day
we got to know each other a little better and I could see that you were strong
and tough, but I could also see right through you. You were more than the
muscles and the athleticism you made yourself out to be; darling it was your
eyes that gave this away. They had a look of kindness that could not fool me. I
told you this, and compared you to a big teddy bear, oh you did not like that
at all. I think that’s what I fell for first, which was your genuine kindness and
tenderness for all people. Many at the house can attest to this, but it was evident
that neither of us wanted to go home that day. And as soon as you left for home, I
left too, and as I drove home I smiled, and giggled, I was giddy with delight and a desire
to be yours.
Only several days later you were holding me in your arms
every night and from then on forward we spent every waking moment possible together,
almost like nothing else but you and I existed. Things with you were easy, and
our lives, personalities and goals seemed to intertwine themselves into a
beautiful puzzle. You have made me the happiest I have ever been, and I miss
that happiness with all of my being. Every day I crave hearing your voice and
waking up in your arms, but that cannot be. I know deep down in my heart that it will take time to find that happiness, but my that my time will come again to be able to smile and feel the way that
you made me feel; so whole and complete.
Love,
Callie
P.S. Baby I'm sharing this video to show everyone what a great dancer you were! <3
